Trudging Thru the Trenches
- brena273
- Feb 9
- 2 min read
Lately, I’ve been gifted with a great big dose of humility and it seemed the harder I tried to press into my faith, the harder satan worked to derail me.
After 2 hard months of constant misfortune, I have found myself begging for a break. I’d replaced Jobs name with mine in the following scripture, where Satan decides to strip Job of everything he has, to test how faithful a servant he was to God:
“Skin for skin!” Satan replied. “A man will give all he has for his own life.
But now stretch out your hand and strike [her] flesh and bones, and [she] will surely curse you to your face.” The LORD said to Satan, “Very well, then, [she] is in your hands; but you must spare [her] life.”
(Job 2:4-6)..
And this morning, I woke teetering on “uncle..” without going too far into detail, I limped out of bed, barely able to walk and dressed for my first day with a new patient after 40 days of unemployment. I followed 4 wide load semi trailers all the way to Hardy, was stopped by a train, and played a fun game of chicken with a semi driver who’s mission was to break me this morning…
I arrived at my destination fuming, crying, livid, and late…
I walked in feeling sorry for myself. “How could things possibly get any worse,” I thought..
And then I knelt down, said “Hi, I’m BeaJai. I’ll be helping to take care of you for a while..” and immediately, those helpless, innocent eyes locked into mine (the exact way that my little best friend’s do), and it was all I could do to hold it together.
I’d experienced my Esther moment.
Because perhaps He places us in the trenches for such a time as this. Perhaps, i was placed here in this moment, locking eyes with this innocent, completely dependant soul, for such a time as this.
I walked in feeling sorry for myself..and I walked out feeling burdened for this patient.
I have been given the opportunity to love this person the way Jesus loves me when I have nothing left to offer. When I’m completely dependent on Him to carry me through the trenches, bc my weary body can no longer do it alone.
I left and spent the next hour sitting on the river bank, starring at this tree..deeply rooted in the water. So much so, that it never has to fear deprivation.
I pray to be just like this tree, so deeply rooted in Christ that I have nothing left to fear. For I know who provides my every need.
If you’re finding yourself trudging through the trenches today, with nothing left to give, let me encourage you to root yourself in the One who nourishes your soul.
“They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.” -Jeremiah 17:8
Written by BeaJai VanWinkle
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